I know this is all hard for you and it's hard for me too. I am trying to get the board going so we have a place to go. Feel free to jump in. If anyone can see this, and you can't log in, please email rushmessageboard2112@gmail.com with your user name, your real name (I don't want any monkey business and want people to have their real accounts) and we will get your password reset as soon as we can and mail it back to you.